Chapter bonbonlove

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I told myself a week ago that I needed a shift, and I am a week late. The website address is almost completely random, but yet not so. Well, go figure if you must!

It’s my first time shifting blogs!

To those who have commented in this space, I can’t thank you enough. I thank technology for existing and it’s creators for making it so convenient for us to keep memories stored virtually. Some memories are better felt by the heart/soul/mind, but virtual is good too. (Haha, virtualhug. =))

To those who found inspiration, keep reading in bonbonlove? I can’t promise the randomness displayed in this space, but I can promise that I still play in the same backyard.

To those who walked by me, let’s keep walking down together, shall we? I’m stretching my hand out. If we aren’t holding hands, let’s just allow our hands to brush loosely against each other until we decide it’s time to hold them tighter, eh? I’m always here.

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May 2007 – March 2008

I don’t promise much, but I can promise to make you smile when you talk to me.

=) Honest.

I may come back here some day. Til then, tata for now.

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here I come!

I dreamt that I dived down into the bottom centre of the pool and pulled out the plug, draining out all the water. I held your hand and we adventured down into the pit where we spent the rest of the day outlining clouds and planting wishes on stars.

I swear that I will earn enough money in the future to purchase a house with land huge enough to occupy a pool the size in my imagination.

Y’know when they say you should always look further than your target when you do standing broad jump? This is the same situation. (:

More Than Words – Sungha Jung

11 year old Fingerstyle Guitar Prodigy, listen or be square!

I like this video the most because of the way he’s positioned and I like his turqoise shirt (is it me or is turqoise so beautiful?…) - back lying against the wall, how he’s concentrating as he’s playing and it seems as though he’s really enjoying it as well. And plus he has godly skills which are hard to find so he wins as no.1 guitar heart throb!!! =D

Little Korean Boy so talented.

He made tonight so beautiful for me. (:

Very, very.

Before anything, here are some pictures which I adore very, very much. =D

 

Green Teddy Balloon sitting in a bed of flowers in the library after V-day! =DD

 

Pretty match box decorating habit I’ve taken up. =)

I’ve always needed words to express this action. How suitably adorable.

This is actually graffiti art, taken somewhere in US.

A teddy I got for Yi, some 2 years back. =) Bad teddy, read the sign!

Ok more for another day.

If you asked me how talented you were, I’d say very, very. If you asked how beautiful you were, I would say you’re gorgeous – it’s as though your eyes work like mini-vacuums, I can’t take my eyes off yours! If you asked me how confident I was? Well… why’d you ask that anyway!

Have you ever been stuck in a zone where you just felt comfortable complimenting others, showering them with praises and meaning them as they come? Well, why haven’t you been giving yourself the credit of being amazing as well? In so many, many ways. We’re all different in behaviour, motives and thought, but we’re all unbelievably magnificent in our own strange ways. Heehee, just felt like telling some people how special they are so:

It’s like how Kevy’s just damn cute and how Pauline and Lena have gorgeous eyes, you know? =D

I’m not saying this for repitition’s sake, I really mean what I’m saying. Don’t deny it when I tell you you’re gorgeous, that if you took some time off to dress up properly, a few thousand hunks would definitely flock to you like a bunch of desperados (gosh what a creepy thought), if you took a leap of faith and danced like no one was watching, you’d turn the crowd on and if you sit down with me to study more diligently, we’d make it through the year okay. Be a dare devil! Challenge yourself!

Someone really important to me taught me how taking risks and persisting would eventually bring you to the gold. It may be because you’re stubborn, but if everything turns out fine at the finish line then why not give it a shot? =) Be careful though. Jiayou, yes? =D

* I’m still very touched that many people have been reading the blog consistently, though it’s a little dead and on the verge of rotting away. Thank you, you make my days really really happy.

Honest!

^_^

Happy Birthdays!

Yesterday morning I was thinking about how fair life was to me, and I figured I’m really blessed and fortunate. I shouldn’t be complacent; I should be grateful – for friends, family, memories, and love. Life’s too short to be wasted anyway, just grab what you have now real realllll tightly and don’t let go. Mmhmm!

Today is Darryl(and his dad’s) and Ryan Teo’s birthday! Tomorrow will be Rajeev’s birthday, and the day after that will be Tong Hui’s birthday. The combined celebration at The Cage was memorable but there was no dinner. -Frownnn- =( Ryan Teo lies!!!

>=(

It was entertaining to watch them play soccer though, and somebody’s amazingly drenched PE shirt which was hung on the chair actually formed a puddle on the ground! Very, very amusing. =)

Anyway.

I’m not at home and it’s 402am; Wow, wow where am I!!! My sec 4 class is 402! Heehee that’s quite cool. =)

I honestly miss the class, and it doesn’t matter to me whether or not it’s a mutual feeling (I’m kidding, it does!). I miss how Amanda would stand in front and ask us to keep quiet, how I used to fall asleep in almost every lesson, how Joanne laughs (honestly damn cute), how Marjorie’s always so xiao jie (really!!!), how Charmaine is Charlotte, how Rachel is so super sweet and sensitive…, how Anzie is so super, how Jessica is so helpful, encouraging and patient, how Siqi amuses me at the strangest moments, how Shi Hua is so pink (:, how Gracia IS SO EGO, how Xiner is pleasant, how Jasmin is hilarious, how Lydia is so sweet omg, how Yu Wen is so TYPICAL, how Shi Ting is so self sacrificial and patient, how Pauline is so Gay =D, how Leong is so shy!, how Yong Zhu is so motherly, how Su is so soft spoken, how Wei Li is so upfront, direct and outgoing, how Joyce only takes photographs with me and not pauline, how Cherie was so patient…, how Os is so cute when she smiles at her hp, how Sharon is so intelligent, how Geraldine is so innocent!, how Ying Jie’s studying really does pay off (it’s really motivating), how Wan Xin’s laugh is so infectious, How Meili is really a princess!!!, how Sarah has that adorable dimple, how Blossom is our Bio genious, how Mel’s laughter is also super infectious, how Hong Chuan’s grades are head-turning, show-stopping, how San Qian used to like to touch my hair ’cause she said it’s nice haha (before I decided to leave it to grow into a pony-stud).

I wonder if those two sleepyheads will fall asleep before I do.

>=D

You’re worth it

Because you make mistakes/you’re not perfect, does not mean you don’t deserve to recieve the best, or deserve to feel happy. We all make mistakes, we all cause trouble, we all know that. Acknowledge the regret, and strive to be rid of this habit!

This was what the sky looked like the other day before assembly!

Very, very gorgeous.

It’s like a racetrack to heaven! =D

I spotted a little green bear sitting amongst the flowers in the library the day after Valentine’s Day. Such a cute encounter that I couldn’t help but take a photo. =) Ah but the photo function’s down. (/_)

Meep! Meep! Meep!!!

Art has been really interesting. We’re using new mediums I’ve never tried before and it’s very challenging and self encouraging. It’s probably the heaviest H2 subject, ever. I don’t think art homework can be copied, neither do I think you can use anyone else’s for reference! I feel blessed to be taking this subject because I know this experience is one of a kind, and not everyone’s as blessed as we are to have this opportunity. Art’s not an easy subject, simply because this isn’t art club. Our teacher teaches, but ultimately it’s the effort and ability that will determine the outcome of your project.

That’s why Mr.Chia says always be proud of your artwork!!!

=)

If you asked me!

Because this practically goes out to anyone at all!

If you asked me to skip around, I’d hold your hand and we’d jump about, high and away, a thousand steps a day, we could skip til forever and ever today! =)

If you asked me to sing you a song, a short little melody we’d hum to til dawn, whistling and chirping our voices til we’re breathless, yet I could go on and on!

If you asked me to cook, or bake, dish out a recipe and create a cake, I say I’ll hunt for the clue and find the best goo, stir up a buffet for you til you’re full! =)

If you asked me to dance with you, I’d hold you by the waist and we’d spin just us two. Twirling and stepping like fire’s beneath our feet, full of passion and grace with such magnificent speed. I’d dance with you, be lost in your stare, dream of forever in your arms . . . afloat in the air?

If you asked me today,

for anything at all,

I just may,

I just might.

promise you…

anything

and everything

you ever wanted.

 =)

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*It’s strange how the words ’stepping stones’ evokes a calm feeling in me, yet the thought of me walking on little, bite-size pebbles positioned vertically hurts alot.

*We finally had a captain’s ball game in 12345 days last friday at the amphitheatre. I was very happy to participate! =)

*Sitting around after school hours just chatting makes me feel happy, but no work gets done. I’m struggling with a few subjects (I only take 4 =_=) already, and tests are around the corner, ready to hunt me down. I don’t think I can ace anything this time round, but let’s hope I get started somewhere soon.

*This blog is public, but still not public enough for you to know me well enough to judge me. Perhaps that’s why I’m fine with blogging like this nowadays, and also in my private(s).

*I was wrong when I said that it hasn’t taken a toll on me, that I haven’t felt the impact and realization hadn’t hit me just yet. I was wrong, so so wrong. Just look at the way I’ve been blogging these few days – it’s too obvious that I’ve been affected by the situation. Blogging in point form? … disorganized thoughts and feelings. Uncoordinated, unplanned, unsystematic and almost just plain chaos. But this only shows so much, and that’s not enough to show everything.

*How have you been?

*I am happy, really. When I’m alone, I soak in the past, present, and future. Thoughts breeze by and then float away. Many things come at once, I’m usually at a loss of what to expect. Then, someone comes by, and I get distracted, again. Well, maybe it’s the thoughts that are distractions, and that which is unnecessary.

*Thank you for being so persistent, so up-front and so passionate. We’re both immature little birds, sitting on the fence, giving occasional peeks at each other at the wrong moments, but never getting caught by the eagle. I don’t think we’ll get eaten up too quickly but being the daring, risk-taking little monkeys that we are, the possibility is rather high. Hahaha, I swear I’ll make sure we make it through these 2 years, I swear on it!  

*I think this face (*_*) is perfect for me, because it doesn’t look like it’s starry-eyed or in love… it just looks like it’s daydreaming, and that’s what I do best! Day Dream.

*To the people who bother to ask, hear me say thank you!!! I’m an open person, open enough to tell about anyone who asks about what happened. It’s not necessary, but if you want to hear from the primary source, just ask?

*Although art is stressful, I love doing art homework!

*why is love so selfless?

But why is love so weak?

why don’t you fight for what you want?

Wait. Don’t answer that.

Pointless.

You’re feeling flustered and panicky. You already told your teacher you’d put in twice (or even more) the effort from now onwards to reach your own expectations (and hopefully his as well), but two hours later you end up at the starting line and you haven’t ran forward any distance at all. You are tired, your eyes still pink from the lack of sleep and your vision swirling with the breeze. You came online to search for materials and information but you ended up getting distracted (are you sure it was a distraction… ?) and you’ve found nothing related to linocut art and you just decided on redoing the entire piece. Brilliant, girl, brilliant. Well, let’s just hope you finish it in time, even if it means you’ll stay up til dawn for the next few days. You promised him, and more importantly you promised yourself, so you’d better achieve your goal,

or else.

Encouragement works in many ways.

I’m going to hold my breath as I’m typing this because I’m feeling it coming out all at once so here goes: I need a hug, a pat, a star, a kiss, a hold, sometime, a love to last. A breeze, a trinkle of wet golden maple syrup, a hold so tight I’ll never let go. A reminder, a message, a key to open, a door, a locket, a truth to be told. A story, a lifetime, a window, a ceiling, an exit, an escape, a bottle, a bowl of honey stars with non-lowfat milk. A kiss, a hold, an embrace, a warning. A …

I ran out of breath.

…

Back to work.

Rang Dang.

^ It’s strange how YiTyng notices me before I notice her. It’s like a hide and seek game now adays, we’re constantly looking out for one another (I wonder if this is mutual!).

^ I make it a habit to look at the sky before assembly everyday mon-fri.

^ I’m going to send my skirts for alteration today! Quite scary! They’re always better longer than shorter yes? And I’m going shopping to buy black skinnies (which I hope I can fit into). Mama promised new pants since last year but still don’t have leh!!! =( 

Oh, it’s you’re wondering…

I’ve been okay.

yup…

Okay. Jumping into random numbering mode now.

1. It must have been glorious fun. I am a little bit jealous, but not jealous enough to sulk about it. The tighter strings are tied together(same theory as covalent bonds), the less chances of ever undoing the knot. That means the slimmer the chance another string can go through the hole in the centre right? I like it how the knots so tight,  and I won’t interfere. I won’t seek to undo it either…

2. I miss you. It’s strange how we never got to know enough about each other to be good friends, yet I miss you so. I wonder what’s lessons like over there? I hear so much about it everyday; about you everyday. I can’t believe the last thing you said to me was “Stay together ya?”. Three simple … wor… sounds and I feel like you said the most meaningful thing the whole week. Stay together? I promise I’ll try.

Running out of time again, byebye!